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Happy 100th Clicks! Its my 1st time putting a counter & gets 100 clicks. Haha, interesting. Anyway, after a few calculating, around 5 people would visit my blog. :D
Now, i'm glad i'm not blogging to air HAHA!
Today, i had lunch with some Malay classies. Mainly 5 guys, Din,Mus,Rais,Kim & Ran. Haha 1st time eating with them,abit funny, well i don't really know what they say in Malay but they are funny at times. So after that went class & blah Blah. :D
So yes, as many of you know i have some issues earlier on in school. Well it almost ended. But since the alot of my classies, didn't know what happen, they started to ask. Because it seems like it started of from another topic, they thought that i was angry for no reason. But the fact is, it started way before that. So yup, please don't misunderstand. End of story. LALALA.
KK so Fred, didn't do the "talk" to me today, like he did on thurs. I think he knows that i don't really want to entertain him anymore. I pray he stop, if he don't then don't blame me if i dunno what i do liao. :D
You see, sometimes being the good person,i gets accused, even if i'm the bad also kena. So tell me, should i just walk my path & ignore hypocrites? See, there's a prob with me at times, i don't really explain & clear my mess. That's me, i don't know why either, so people always take me as a BAD person. But only after awhile when they experience the same thing, then they know that actually i'm not the BAD one. Pfft. So i save my energy for that.
So life isn't so smooth now, i see those who practically hates me, likes me & those who seriously just try to take sides. Hmm, why is there so many types of people in the world? Sometimes, i hate being clueless & learn the hard way, sometimes i hate to know so much & stress about it. Sometimes, i give up on being good & kind, sometimes i hate being evil & mean. It feels like i'm lost at times, but sometimes, God takes me by the hand & comforts me. There are times, the weight of the world is on my shoulders, at times it just lifted up & never felt so light. It's odd how the world works.
Hmm... sometimes i wonder, i know i'm perfect, no one is perfect. Things don't make sense to me at times. No matter how unfair the world maybe, it really doesn't sound logical to me. Haish, i think in the world, the only people i can trust is my family.Whoever else is not trust-able, even as friends. This is why i hate having friends at times. They always seem to stand by you, but when something happen, they shunt away. It's really my judgment is wrong or i'm really hanging out with wrong people all the time. I think, i don't want any friends if they are like that. D: yes, i am upset about this. It'll be lonely but i guess it's ok since i lived my life w/o much friends too.
I asked my mum, "why are people not trust-able? Why are friends not trust-able?". Then she said, " those are fake friends,put up fronts to act like they are your friends. It's not easy to find a good friend, takes time to find one also.". I pray God bless me with one soon. Someone decent, makes me smile & supports me at times. :D & i know God will bless me with one. HEHE! XDD
Alot of people don't know but i'm quite an emotional person, i get upset easily. Mere words can crush me at times, cos i trust people alot, & they tend to hurt me with words once in a while. I hate myself sometime for being inborn with such emotions. LOL! Oh well, i think i'll get by it & grow from it in the future. :D I'll be sucessful one day & let no one hurt me anymore! HEHE! Cos no one have seen my potential yet LOL! xDDDD
Signing Out, StarDustie.
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